Staggering Losses, Feeling Rejected
Gary’s 1973 logging accident changed the course of his life. Fast forward four decades. Gary and Mary’s company, Young Living, is bettering the lives of millions of people across the globe.
In February of 1973, my life took another change. I was hit with a tree while logging, spent 3 weeks in intensive care in a coma, a little over 2 years in a wheelchair, and 13 years learning to walk again. I was a prisoner in a crippled body.
I thought I had lost all of my freedom, that I had lost my life, and that there was no longer a reason to live. I could not stand, I could not walk, and I could not ride my horse anymore. I could not walk in the mountains that I loved, I could not hunt or walk the streams and fish. I could not run and play with my children. I could not even hold them on my lap. I could not escape the pain, emotionally and physically. When I could not walk or run or work or even die, all I could do was dream about dying.
I lost everything—my ranch, my horses, my logging business—and the worst was, I lost my family.
I begged God to take me home; and when He did not, I felt rejected and not wanted. Has anybody here ever felt that God didn’t love you? Then maybe you can relate. I felt He did not love me, so I dreamed more about dying.
